So it has been a while that I inked my thoughts on paper!
Last couple of weeks have been a struggle- to construe some kind of meaning in this existence, the what and why of this life! There are times when I recede into a cocoon of my own making- where in isolation I muse upon some surreal questions; diving into the obsidian depths of my mind . Like a sea slug lying unobtrusive on the sea floor, my question refuses to go away, no matter how much I dive into abyssal depths to run away from it, I keep coming back - over and over! I tie millstones of rationalism around its neck ,burn it at the stake of optimistic contentment , but like the mythological phoenix, it rises up every time!
The demon confronts me again and this time I chose to take it head on. So here I am trying to figure out an answer to the one question that has ceaselessly rallied like an unabating storm against the windows of my mind- Are we truly free and masters of our own destiny?
Like all human, I live a glorified chimera we call life- a fable with its share of ebbs and tides. I have maintained the facade that I am the creator of my destiny and . And a tiny voice inside my head say- "Oh Really!!!"
No matter how much we wish to continue the illusion, the fact is, there are forces in this universe that are beyond our understanding or control. The best laid plans go awry, years of hard work lay to naught, your life disintegrate in front of you.... and you cannot do anything except wring your hands , lament or rage against the inequity.
I am a firm believer in the concept of TIME. When the time is right , everything neatly falls into place like pieces of a jigsaw puzzle and when the time is not- well, one piece will elude you, precluding the completion of your puzzle.
I am still pondering over the question, sinking deeper into the vast morass as I try finding an answer... and so the quest continues !!!!
Till next time
Akanksha Bhanot
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